lalalallalalalalalalaalallaallaa





just making sure this blog doesnt die! (:
i dont want another of my blog to close down cos i didnt update. rah

bye!

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.


if you caught me singing to myself and wondered what was i singing, there you go. hah.

its 1.11am right now and..i've a lot of work undone and i really shouldn't be blogging.
i'll try again next time.

1.23am. damn. gotta go..

just read some random choir people's blog.

it's been one whole "choir year".
from the day the batch of J3s left off, it's been one whole hectic year.
i must say that i've never expected choir to be such a tough commitment.
it's not a sports cca, nor any club set up for academically inclined students. yet the amount of endurance, brains, stamina and determination we've put in for the year is definitely as tough as all these mentally and physically challenging ccas.

for the J2s, last night has marked the end of their long and tiring year. Towards the last part of the concert, everything was no longer just about the notes, rhythm nor lyrics. "Emotional" would be the word I'd use to describe one of our songs "The Riddle". As the girls started singing their parts in the start and the guys swayed along with the music, suddenly many many many images started flashing across my mind. I couldnt help but turned a little and looked at the choir. Memories dated back till a year ago when Ms Lim came down for practices everytime saying "You people have weak brains, no sense of music, no match for the senior's batch". Probably till now people will still be saying we're not as musically inclined as our seniors. But what put up a good show for the audience last night, i felt it was the "feel". There were no more soloist to shine in front of the audiences and make them think that we're good because we have all these wonderful singers. We fought hard and we grew on our own. We came a long and tough journey, but on stage last night, it really felt like "we were chionging together". Everyone was tired, but everyone was trying their hardest to feel the music, to feel each other, and we sang our hearts out.

I think to me this year Choir has been like a very long dream. Apart from reality where we have homework thrown to us like grenades, and people's gossips at school like arrows shooting everywhere, our tests and exams like timebombs, our parent's endless nagging like sirens (haha). But every tuesday, wednesday and friday, the people who have a whole lot of passion to sing will come together and we'll sing our lungs out. No matter what kind of emotions you previously felt for the day, whether happy or sad, somehow after you bring them to choir, thing's will change.When we sing well, everyone's happy. When we sing badly, everyone's frustrated. But either way, you're definitely not alone. and i think it's the most important reason why choir's so tough yet we wouldn't mind waking up early for morning singing on Mondays and Fridays, Or staying back till so late On Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Fridays. Every moment shared together just makes our bond even stronger, and the fact we could sing out feelings through our music, its because everyone felt the same thing.

So I'd say that its saddening some of us will say goodbye to this dream and return back to reality, to get back on track on their lives, their studies, their family...etc. Hopefully, the spirit for singing will still remain in each and every one of us, no matter those who're still fighting or moved on. Its really a blessing to be a singer, especially to sing with all these people (:

will definitely miss big eyes, stones and bouncing people.
be proud to be a njchorister! (:

JC life is really hectic compared to secondary school.

homework, CCA, CIP, test/exams, projects are like tsunamis ready to hit and drown you down.
living up to expectations of yourself and other people ain't as easy as you think it is.
Everyday you're just gonna have to plan properly about the decisions you'd make.
Its either the black faces of people around you, or the sad face of your own. Decide.
Even if you're sick and tired and annoyed and wanna punch someone in the face, you simply accept that it's part of life, you pull yourself together, you smile and you get over it.

Trust is...speculative. Even if they're your friends, things you didn't do well enough will piss them off. No one will pity you if you're sick and you didn't do your work. Point is, you didnt do your work!

Emotions can be such a thrilling rollercoaster ride.
But at endless nights when the emotions get into your mind, you'd simply be too tired to think about it your mind totally just shuts off everything.

To my friends who're thinking about boy-girl relationships and stuff, i'm really surprised you have that time and effort to spare. Seriously, aren't you tired enough?

its 5th april 2008 now.
JC education will be over in end of november 2009.

so get over it.

jiayou!

[i'm sorry if the tone's harsh on this entry, i'm just very exhausted. ):]

goodnight.

talk about being sick.
):

stupid.stupid.dumb.stupid

hey come on, i tried?
well at least i tried.
too bad its not useful
never gonna work out la

ahh well. back to GSC...

couldn't sleep. so here i am, blogging about italy trip haha. got pretty much to say but lets see what my brain can still recall....

i think many of us NJ choristers grew up from this experience. J2s, J1s, IPs...this italy trip was probably this year's highlight and all the memories back from 5+ months ago when we started learning the songs till now, it's been a long, tough journey for everyone.

This batch of choristers has been so much different from the last batch. I could still remember when i joined choir back in IP2, things were never this tough. We were a large choir, we were good, the gold with honours was achieved by our seniors, not us. I could still recall how disappointed ms lim got when the J2 batch left. everything fell apart because we shrunk, and we were just not good musically, compared to the J2s. Every practice felt so long and tiring and demoralising and many felt like quitting and running away from things, and i was one of them. I'm really thankful ppl like eugene and yongjian talked to me and got me holding on, because its then i started seeing much more things in this choir.

Winning isn't the most important thing, really, after this whole competition thing. Look at how we've fought so hard from what we used to be, a flop everywhere, till the day the judges announced we achieved our gold. Which is why i told eugene its not that all disappointing after all. I think i almost cried when i heard the recording. We had never, for any practice, sang all 4 songs straight without forgetting details of the song. Perhaps its just because i'm not very musical in terms of choral background, but the only thing i heard from the recording was how much effort everyone has put in to put up a good show during that few minutes we sang on that stage. Memories that dated back to last november when we first picked up the songs and got a good scolding for ms lim every single time. O Magnum, for example, was the worst song for the tenors and i could clearly remember how hard the 4 of us, eugene jing an me and dianfeng tried to push ourselves until what we achieved that day on the italian stage. haha i could recall the times when ms lim just shouted across the AVA, "louder! louder!" and we pushed so hard that we got so tired after that hahaha. and we were ordered not to get sick so even if we were, we had to sing hahaha. When the J1s came thing turned slightly better because we had larger numbers and some pretty good choristers. However, we still didn't reach the standards and time was running short so everything was just...tough. Enough said about the choir part, there was still the carolling, the chocolate sales, the mochi sales and all that. The fact that our number was small allowed every single one to push to their hardest to help make this trip possible, musically, physically, financially (haha) and emotionally. All in all, it's the effort everyone has put in for NJCHOIR to reach the italian stage to win a gold that's most important to everyone, and there's is so much "thank you" to all the people who've made this dream possible. Though we didn't fulfill the dream to its maximum, the fact that we dared to dream, and fought hard towards this dream, its really touching. AJC winning the grand trophy raised alot of commotion but well i think that its just the different taste of different people. Art is subjective, as Ms Lim says. So whatever we've sang, as long as we feel good about it, it's good already. Since the syf batch, njchoir met up with nothing but various setbacks, but i'm sure everyone will keep fighting on to prove that we're worthy to fight for the gold with honours next syf. haha go everyone!

NJCHOIR = family(:


on a lighter note, I STILL CAN'T SLEEP! hahahaha i really hate jet lag.
anyway i miss italy haha. not really so much about the shopping and all. just the moments spent with the choir people. hahaha i remember last time even after the seniors graduate, i also don't even know many seniors! HAHA its like...too many le heh. so small numbers are quite fine hahaha. but anyway yep i think this batch is pretty much more bonded after this italy trip. GO FRUIT BASKET! HAHAHAHA. shucks i miss staying up at night to gossip. hear gossips i mean heh, i dont gossip de wor :P leave the gossips to ultimate pokpokkeh hahaha.


alright i think i've said enough for tonight!
goodnight.
love njchoir! (:

it's holidays!
FINALLY. time to sleep like a pig, eat like a pig, roll around on the bed like a pig! a pig's life rocks! hahaha

i just kinda realise italy is just so soon it's like 3 days? haha
i havent started packing! shit i dunno what to pack this is so annoying.
i went to search on italy packing list and i must say its useless hahaha
actually just bring whatever you bring on normal holidays.
seems like i v long nv go holiday le :/

money should be the toughest issue here.
my parents don't want me to spend any extra money other than for food.
but i'm growing! i need more food than usual meals rightttttt?? (:
hahaha i might try to get some stuff for my friends here too.
dunno la hopefully i'll get enough money. haha.
wanted to use my angbao money but...looks like its gone. HAHAHA
there's only 1 lonely 50 dollar note there....man, i didn't spend on anything except food lor!
recently been paying for too much other stuff like pullover, DEAL, andddd more food. hahaha
oh well. i'm seriously growing fat, sai! must go train up le. you know during PE class its so tough carrying all the fats around the 400m track hahahaha. i'm no longer the fit o' chiansiang yea..shit cannot! tts why going swimming with joyce lavania they all during the hols woohoo! shake them off~


choir ytd was not v good haha. everyone was tired and there was only energy to sing you part but none to feel each other and blend together for the 4 sections. so it sounded nice but mechanical. like you don't hear any story from the song. hahaha but still i felt sixuan's visualisation thing was not bad! (except the fact turning off the lights made me even more sleepy) haha yeap. eugene told me xingqun said tenors are v zai. WOOHOO! (: actually i think tenors are just. v stable, and ALWAYS fighting. its not that we're zai but we put in alot of goddamn effort to be damn zai. hahaha but we're still not as zai as the last batch. jiayou tenors! oh i think the sopranos have improved alot since we started chionging for italy. ALOT. hahaha can feel the fighting spirit from the sound. (maybe cos i've been standing beside sopranos in the staggered position) lol maybe its just xiangting brought in so much confidence in sops. tsk rely on seniors...hahahaha.


okay i've dug out all the clothes for italy. shall be ironing then packing when i'm back from malaysia. oh i've to bring my homework too which means i need to do FILING. ultimate shittttt. hahaha i hate filing my stuff. ahhhh well.

will be going malaysia until monday night.
byebye!

today played soccer early in the morning with tenors + basses. was super amusing! eugene became roque santa cruz cos wenjie said he supports blackburn?!?! and i told yongjian he was emile heskey...never scores at important times but score alot at the unimportant ones haha. caleb became ANGRY shevchenko cos he loves to zaaam the ball but hardly hits the target hahahaha. wensong was just...as siao as he can be haha.

i still can't forget caleb's last goal. i goal-kicked..he jumped..the ball hit his thigh (near his eh hum)...rebounded..and bounced into my goal. LOL. man!! me wensong and yongjian were like HUH?!?!! lol. i really like the batch of guys in choir now. so damn funny esp the tenors hahahaha.

it rained and we went up to the choir stall. CALEB IS REALLY GOOD WITH THE GUITAR!! and so is wensong! man i feel so lousy only know the few chords amanda taught me...but anyway in order to kill time caleb started strumming chords on the guitar and everyone in the choir store started singing and singing...hahaha. the tenors even tried to harmonize. lol probably it would help alot in feeling each other's music haha. yongjian said we should just dig out the songs that was arranged and the guys could form an acapella! (: hahaha i think it would be v nice if we could try singing for cantabile this year. go dudes!

nth much about school. K.O-ed during lessons and lectures. i think i'm seriously bringing my stuff to study on the plane..i better start filing up all my stuff it resumed into a pile. just not as big as last year's. you know the pile is still packed in a box....HAHA. i chose to ignore it. :P


afterschool played bball with choir people. yet again. hahaha i had no clothes to wear alrd since morning's attire was chucked into a plastic bag to contain its fragrance in the bag...hahaha so amanda dug and dug and found ANCIENT choir t-shirts. LOL. i think it probably is like 3 - 4 years old...hahaha the designs are abit laoopok le heh. but oh well. who cares. hahaha so me wensong and amanda wore them and played ball. first it was just lingchung conana and jing an. then added wensong amanda caleb and me. then soon yongjian came. then haocheng (and his friend called jia..smth haha) and elvin came. then eunice came. it became SO CROWDED hahaha its like you can't even dribble the ball in...worst of all we were vs-ing the TALL GROUP. with CONANA, ELVIN, CALEB, AMANDA making up "THE THING"S. from fantastic 4. hahahaha so tall it was just impossible to block them nor dribble in..and lingchung was pretty hiong with his 3-pointers lol...lucky we pressed on hahaha but everything was so funny. played like..for 2 hours or so. fun! (: except im q tired right now haha.


hmm i think i should try to do my chem tutorial 3 to avoid being kicked out of class tomorrow hahaha. alright that's it for today.


7 days!

1. i can feel every inch on my body aching right now, right at this moment.
2. many pimples popped out here and there cos i think i'm gonna have a fever my temperature is going up....
3. i have approximately...5 - 8 big ulcers in my mouth despite gulping water down every single day.
4. i'm lagging in tutorials. or rather i'm just not concentrating.
5. homework doing has stopped since monday.
6. dinner has been very very late, and alot of carbo..
7. emotionally it's been $#%$#%$%^%*)@! like seriously
8. we are going to fight in italy
9. we are going to FIGHT in italy
10. we WILL FIGHT ALL THE WAY in italy.

njchoristers all the way! (: